27 July 2011

another one.

Writing has been my foe this week.
Luckily I have an excuse! We had our first houseguest this week. My husband’s college roommate came for a visit, all the way from Traverse City! We were really excited that someone wanted to drive all that way just to visit, or at least I was. Evan, as I will call the roommate, is a wonderful friend. He is the type of person who seems quiet at first but being around him you realize he is just thinking about his words before they come out. That’s a rare ability to find some times. In today’s society the value of shouting your opinion at the top of your lungs, saying whatever you damn well please whenever you  want, is support by loud media headlines and celebrity outrage. I enjoy his company, his slow methodical thinking and funny conversations. He is quite funny, giving us a joke or short story that makes us laugh. When you are around Evan, he makes you feel comfortable with his kindness of words, very rarely have I ever heard him swear at something, make fun of someone or raise his voice for his own opinion. He is the man who draws people in to friendship not because he is loud about his difference, but rather because of his quiet confidence. I admire his ability to think before he speaks, I wish I could emanate it all the time. I tend to mindlessly jibber jabber about the irrelevant things in life, leaving me feeling like I’ve wasted my words. It might be more of a slow down issue though…

I have been thinking a lot about going back to school for my masters degree. I am cautious though, in such an economy, with the job market difficult enough, does it make sense to increase my value? If I go back to school, spending more money and time on my skills, will that really payoff in the long run? Are companies going to be looking for a masters degree holding sales person? I am not even sure what kind of business I want to be in. Working in manufacturing right now certainly suits what I like to do, but will it be challenging enough? Can an additional degree allow me to move into positions where I can be challenged? I really like the idea of going back to school. I like reading and studying, I even miss it some times. I would be taking a lot of time out of my evenings, but I know enjoying what I am learning will overcome any extra time spent buried in books. I am nervous, it's a big step. And could be an ever bigger opportunity.

At the present, my husband is enrolled in a Doctoral program for Osteopathic Doctors. He is really enjoying his first week but there is a lot of work. even the first day he had several chapters of reading to complete. Its hard to leave him alone all night, just letting him read. Some how being a newlywed and then changing your lifestyle seems difficult to me. It must be the change, going from spending every second outside of work with my husband to now getting a good talk in at dinner and then again right before we fall asleep. I am so happy that he is pursuing his career in the medical field but I know its going to have its rough spots. I enjoy spending time with him, but medical school is not shy about letting you know that other things have to come second. I can't imagine trying to date someone and show them you care during this time. How crazy. In fact, right now as I am typing he is buried in on-line quizzes for exams that are weeks away.

Ok, enough time on-line for me. 

Until next time,

15 July 2011

Well I made it. blog number two. phew.
Recently a lot of things have changed in my life. Big, life changing things. 1. I got married. yes thats right, tied the knot. Its wonderful. I am married to my best friend and couldn't be happier.  2. Now that I have spouse, my spouse and I moved to Pennsylvania from Michigan. Lots going on.
So in the midst of all these things, here I am writing about the good times and the bad. There will be lots of both I am sure.
For some reason though, with all the changes that are going on, I am remarkably calm. Even our wedding day seem to calm me down. Making me stop and realize how wonderful my life is, how lucky I am and how much confidence I should have that I am making the right decisions. Of course I cried, mainly during the vows. I just couldn't hold it back any longer! But at the end of the day, nothing felt more comfortable thank walking away with my husband. Funny how I feel so stressed, overwhelmed and crazy on typical days, yet on one of the most important days of my life I felt perfectly relaxed. Perhaps that's how I know its right. My decisions about what shoes to wear or what kinds of food I want to eat are hard to make some times (admittedly, I have a lot of shoes so that is a tough decision) don't make or break my lasting happiness. I am more confident in my decisions than ever before too. Its as if I had such a hard time making decisions before meeting my husband. Things were off, and the inability to make decisions that would be positive was affected. There was a missing part of my decision making, and the confidence I have now makes me wish I could go back to make better decisions. I know there is no use wanting to change the past, so forward with my confidence I go.
Its been quite an experience to move to a larger city. Growing up in a small town where most of your friends live withing 10 minutes of you and there is only one grocery store can really change how you see the world. Take for instance the route i decided to run last night. All i needed to do was 5 miles, what i ended up doing was something else. I ran a normal start to a run around the neighborhood where we live now. I was able to recognize most of the buildings for about 3 miles. then i hit my last mile. i was on the wrong side of town, it was getting dark and I had no idea where I was. I had to stop to ask for directions at a mixed martial arts storefront (it was that or the Red Fox Inn bar) only to find out that I was not even close to home. The guy I talked with said that I better call someone for a ride, he told me I was not in a good part of town as it was getting darker by the minute. I had to call my husband to pick me up. Something I have never had to do. I was embarrassed and a little scared. I made it home safely but learned my lesson, out and backs are better ideas when you don't know the area. :)

I love living in Pennsylvania now and exploring a new city is very adventorus. So far we have found the state park which is beautiful to run, bike or swim at and a lot of the stores we need. There have been a lot of trips to the Lowe's around the corner! We now have a two bedroom, 1-1/2 bathroom townhouse with a basement. This is quite the upgrade from our old one bedroom, one giant kitchen-dinning-living room apartment. Its been fun decorating the extra space and figuring out what kinds of new furniature we need. My husband has a "man cave" area in the basement now along with our best addition, a washer and dryer! Really, a simple machine can make all the difference! Its great to have it available whenever we need it. Luxury. We also have an outside porch area where we spend a lot of time at night. We recently bought a table to put outside so we can have more usable space. We have breakfast and dinner out there most nights when the weather is good. I love the new place. I will attempt to post pictures. that might be a stretch but I can try!
Well, I better get back to the grind.

13 July 2011

Getting Started. Again.

For some reason I always have the best intentions with blogs. Starting them with the hope it will become an Internet sensation. At best I usually lose my password (I know I wrote it on on that scrap of paper somewhere..), forget to update date it with any sort of frequency or neglect it all together. 
Time to start again I decided. I'll be more regular. I'll write great things. And I will make this blog part of my day.
Writing things done has been therapeutic lately, so my hope is that this blog helps me even more. Knowing that people might read my post, allowing me to share my thoughts with others who might be in the same situation or facing the same challenge.
I am excited about my life, its really grand. I can't wait to share it all.

Ok. Back to work. More later.